pretty words.

he once called me to tell me that he loved me, & i had no sympathy for his words, i didn't know if i could belive him. he told me that he fell in love with me from the moment he laid his eyes upon mine, & knew that i should be the girl he should spend the rest of his life with.

i remember him telling me that he was going to do everything in his power to end up where i am because i was all he had left & nothing else mattered. i remeber everynight before going to bed, my phone would read "good night my beautiful, i'll be with you soon." and every morning, "i wish i was waking up next to you."

the truth is never loved him, i may have eventually gotten to that point, but as far as life directs me, i have only loved once. i never repeated those three little life changing words to him, and he knew, he was just waiting.

and now 6 months later, he is married, and now 5 months later, him & his beautiful wife are expecting a child.

what scares me is the unreality of the whole situation, how full of flaws & lies every statement he made. how absolutly stupid i feel so for even considering the possiblities.

but i guess that just life... & i'm still waiting.