if i could.

if i could just up and run away, i'd run away from my debts, failures, and fears. i'd run away from the credit cards, and phone bills that sit to haunt me at the end of every month. i'd run from the fact that i have no money, nor do i need any. i'd run from that fact that i am so poor, but be close to the fact that i could almost feel like Jesus, full of the Fathers presence, no matter what was in my pocket.

if i could just up and run away, i'd run from, hurt, pain and, selfishness. i run from the tears that come every night, or from the sorrow i feel from the homeless man holding a sign that says "God Bless." i'd run from the fact that i can't even spare him a dollar cause sometimes i don't want to.

sometimes i wish i could run as far as the sun could take me, some times i wish i would run out to the middle of no where, and meet Jesus in an open field, telling me He has missed me.

Sometimes, i wish i could win the lottery so i can just up and give everything i had to those who had nothing because i have everything i need.

Other times, i wish i was in heaven, or day dreaming on a beach with no worries, or even just swinging on a swing up on top of a hill.

i would run, run so far where i can't be found. i would run so far to where Jonas did, where he could hear music, and placed Gabriel in his warm arms to hear.

i would run to my paradise, where no anger exists, sadness, or defeat; where i can wake up to a beautiful morning full of happiness. i would wake up to a day waiting for me to claim as my own.

sometimes imagine my self in the middle of the woods listening to the birds sings, as they say, " i have no worries." i can hear the frogs chirping "Today is a free day." I imagine my self waking up to a morning where i can sing "Beautiful Dreamer."

One day i imagine the entire nation holding hands in a circle singing "Amazing Grace," with tears streaming from everyone's eyes, as if they have found what they have been looking for their entire lives; Jesus standing in the middle with tears pouring out if His eyes, saying " I love you."

if i could just up and run away, i would. but not just anywhere. it would have to be up along a beach, where i could meet Jesus, and hug Him, and tell Him that i have been searching for Him for so long. that i have been waiting for that day where i can run up to Him face to face, and just embrace that presence of His beautiful body standing there before me.