everything.

i've stood here many times before, & it’s the same question over again, how far is He from me. i wake every morning to His beautiful presence beside me; still, i have yet to see Him. i have yet to touch Him, & everyday He tells me He loves me, & every day i smile. i know He is there. i know that when my tears fall, they are caught. i know that when i scream at night, my cries are comforted. my lies are always seen, my thoughts always heard, & my prayers always answered.
i have fallen in love with what I don’t see. i’ve fallen in love with the One I can’t touch. i have fallen in love with Him & He completes me. He is my everything, & i have always been everything to Him. my life, my lover, my friend, my dreams, my hopes. Love in everything I do, Love in everything I am, every thing i ever will be. He is there with me. every time i will fail, He will be there to pick me back up.
i can’t go on with out Him anymore. life is not beautiful unless His name is written in it. He makes it beautiful, He makes me beautiful. i am completely wrapped up in the idea of Him & who He is. Completely lost in everything He is & has been. it’s like there is this secret i cant tell, only because i don’t know how. & i ache & scream for the world to see & understand, but i don’t know how. my thoughts are nothing but tangled, unable to unwrap themselves, & even if i had an idea of what to say, the words wouldn’t come out as beautiful as the feeling inside. He has ruined me in the utter most, corrupt, beautiful manner. i refuse to go back to whatever & who ever i was before Him. i see Him in my dreams, in my thoughts. i see Him in every ringing voice I speak to. He dwells & lives in every being that breaths into this earth. He is love, my love, my beautiful, my every breath. my heart now only belongs to Him.